“You need to go to the other section, dear.”
Haven’t we all heard that one? Shopping for clothes and being sent to the fat girl section? Ugh. Today was the first time I was floored by that statement in a positive way. I was shopping in the fat girl section (of Nordstrom) only to find out that their 14W’s are now too big, at least in pants. My goodness I carry my weight up top, but I digress. So that’s what the lady said to me in the dressing room, looking at the absurd roominess of the slacks I was trying on. “You need to go to the other section, dear.” Wow, talk about a non-scale victory. Even more shocking was I went to the regular size zone and they didn’t look alarmed at seeing me there. No one asked me who I was shopping for. They just asked me if they could help me. I bought a sweater that was on sale. It was an XL, but a regular girl’s XL. I’m a bit thrown off by the whole experience. In a good way but I’m definitely living with funhouse mirrors of my body. I wonder when I’ll see myself as others see me. I suspect it’s a long-time coming.
My quest to Onederland is slow. Very very slow. But I’m getting there. My personal goal is to get there in February. And yes I realize that’s like 1 pound a week and I should probably set my sights a little higher but I just want to keep moving along this trajectory to Onederland. I’m trying to enjoy the journey. I think I may be enjoying it too much - the destination just isn’t that far away and yet I plod along. Ho-hum. It’s been hard to get in enough exercise the last few weeks - weather, interviews, and some health drama had the better of me for a bit - but I’m still working out several days a week (4?) and every time I do I think “I need to make more time for this again!” What I really need is a treadmill here at the house. But then I’d have to think of another excuse. 
I had 3 very good interviews this week - I can see at least 2 of them moving forward. I hope I hope I hope. Today’s was for an amazing job that I would love to do. The money isn’t as terrific as I’d hoped it would be but the job would be so gratifying, and the experience would be worth it. The other 2 jobs pay boatloads… I’m just not sure if I want them at the same level as the one I interviewed for today. That said, it’s tough to turn down boatloads of cash, particularly when you’ve been without an income as long as I’ve been without one now. Ugh.
Anyway, I am clearly just rambling. I just wanted to share my nonscale victory and wish everyone a very very happy February. And so it goes. Hugs to all, Ellen
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THat’s so great - what a Onederful story! Good luck with the jobs!
Ellen, we’ve missed you!!!!!!!!!!! Where have you been?
I’m so happy about the clothes shopping. Way to go Ellen!! That must feel fantastic. I’m working hard to get to that side of the store also.
Let us know how the job interviewing goes. Your in my prayers….Big Hugs!!!
How awesome!! Funny how we still see ourselves as the “fat girl” I know I do, and have to remind my self of my new size. Congrats!
High fivers on the non-scale victory!
Ellen, you may be plodding along, but the thing is… you are plodding along.
A nice steady pace is where it’s at and what’s going to keep it off. I think you are doing an excellent job. You are not over-analyzing this journey to the point that your obsessed with it, you’re enjoying the ride, ANDDDDDDDDDD you’re losing weight. Big smile for you and my total admiration.
The job interviews? Go with your heart, not the money…. you will be happier in the long run… That’s advice from me that you didn’t ask for but I’m giving it anyway cause I have that big ol mouth ya know. LOL
Hugggggggggggggggs,
Shan
We did miss you . I was going through Ellen withdrawals. Great job on the weight loss. I can understand the feeling on the store issue. When I lost 80 lbs originally I would head straight to the section and search the 3x stuff. Just to realize i needed the 14/16, I could not believe how much better the selection was. It felt great. I cant wait to be there again.
Oh how I’ve missed your blogs my wonderful friend.
I am thrilled to pieces about your non-scale success!! I am THRILLED and very, very happy for you!!
I am also happy to hear about the prospective jobs….I’m a little worried about the kind of work I will be doing once I move…and how long I will be unemployed, but I also think about the upside of having time to do some introspection! God does work in mysterious ways and so my hope for us both, is that whatever path our work life takes us, is a rewarding and happy one. Now….I’ve just recently truly learned, that although money makes life a little easier, it doesn’t buy you happiness…funny thing is….even though we’ve been TOLD this countless times….I am finally beginning to understand it. Ok…now I’m the one who is rambling. My apologies.