I am 42 - let’s celebrate!
Today is my 42nd birthday. I’m trying to figure out if I look older this year or younger. I think I might look older, because I’ve lost some fat in my face. It is what it is… I’m not a big birthday person so it’s kinda weird for me to throw it out there to you all and say “check it out - it’s my birthday!” but I’m trying something new this year. I’m trying to get comfortable with being noticed in general. I think this is one of the steps I need to take to get my head around the whole holiday reaction to weight loss issue I’ve blogged about recently.
Speaking of which my anxiety level on that is still high, although not nearly as high as it was a few weeks ago. I’m settling into it and getting comfortable with this new body of mine. Which, btw, is currently 6 pounds from a very exciting number! (I’m down another 2 pounds this week btw - WOOT!) The goal is to be out of the 2’s by year end. I’m going to be close but I’m focused on the goal and I honestly believe I can get there with dedication, moderation, and a little help from my buddies 
This 200 mark is a big one for me. I was trying to remember the last time I saw it. It’s been a long long time. I’m not one of these big-time yo-yo dieters, or if I am, I guess I’m not terribly successful at getting really low because the last time I saw 199 I was 27 years old. I did Weight Watchers right when I started at McGraw-Hill and that was 15 years ago. Holy cow. I haven’t been under 200 pounds in 15 years. That’s a realization. About 6 years ago I did Atkins and got down to 214. Then I gained it all back. Last year I took phentermine and got down to 219. And gained 16 pounds back. This year I eliminated gluten and processed foods and started walking my buns off… lifestyle choices I can maintain I might add. And I’m smaller than I’ve ever been. That’s something to celebrate on this my 42nd birthday.
I’m feeling the need to moisturize badly.
Tim is working today and tomorrow. I’m not happy about it. I’m trying to be supportive because I know he really wants the extra cash for the holidays but mostly I want to spend some time with my boyfriend for my birthday. I am seeing him tonight - we’re having dinner with my friend Cheryl - but really I just want more time with him. Haven’t seen him all week because of this overtime craziness - I think he put in 15 extra hours M-F and then this weekend he’s doing 10 today and 10 tomorrow. I can tell I’m getting attached because frankly, I miss my boyfriend. A lot. And it’s making me a little nutty. We speak daily but I’ll confess to you all that I’ve felt vaguely lonely all week long with him not around. This is probably another emotional step in our relationship - I wonder if he’s feeling the same way. Ah the drama of young (I mean middle-aged) love. I mean like. I’m not actually ready to say love yet.
And that’s about it from here. Thank you for celebrating my life with me every day and know that when I count my blessings I count my buddies here right near the top of that list. Hugs to all, Ellen
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Happy Birthday to YOU Happy Birthday to YOU Happy Birthday dear Ellen Happy Birthday to YOU! Enjoy your special day….Huggs
Happy Birthday!! I don’t want to count ‘em anymore, but then again I’m glad I made it so far. You know the one about if I’d known I’d live this long, I’d have taken better care of myself. Have a super day and glad about the BF. Missing him is a good sign…. isn’t it? Love, Marge
Happy Birthday Ellen. Congrats on your weight loss this week. You’ll make your goal by year end.
kimberly
Happy birthday Ellen, Happy Birthday!! You have so much to celebrate indeed and I’m thrilled for you. Wish I was there so we could go out and celebrate! And wow, I leave for a few weeks and I when I come back you have a boyfriend? LOL!! I’m glad to know your relationship with Tim has blossomed. Sending you much love and happiness on your special day and always,
Jo
Happy Birthday! And having a new boyfriend can be tough. I remember wanting to see my boyfriend (now my husband) all the time but he would work so much. So I would want to see him but not be so needy looking either. Wanting to say I love you but not sure if it’s the right time either. Wondering if he felt the same way. It can get real emotional and confusing. But, it can also be exciting too. At least you will see him though so make the best of it and enjoy your birthday. Congrats on another loss this week and I have no doubt you will reach your goal for passing the 200’s. Oh what a great time that will be!
Happy Birthday and congrats!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
And Congrats on losing
Way to go
You do have a lot to be proud of as this birthday comes around.
You made so many positive changes.
Awesome!
Enjoy your birthday dinner
Lori
Happy Birthday my lovely friend Ellen! Just stopping by to congratulate you with so many changes you have accomplished in just one year.
Love,
Tatiana
Congrats on the 2 lbs. You’re doing awesome on that front. And thanks for sharing your birthday with us. I’m glad it was a step in the right direction for you. Oh…what girl wouldn’t want to be with her boyfriend for their birthday…it sucks that he’s working but at least you can’t say the man is a bum right?? Enjoy the rest of your day.
Happy Birthday Girl….I hope you have a good one
Happy Birthday and congratulations on the additional 2lb weight loss. Your looking fabulous.
Happy birthday. =0) That is cute. Having someone special is really wonderful. I am super happy and excited for you.
happy birthday girl! you sure have a lot to be proud of this year!!! way to go!
Happy Birthday! Congrats on the loss!
Happy, Happy! I love how you threw that “boyfriend” word around alot in your blog! Sounds nice doesn’t it?
Hope you have a wonderful day!
Hugs,
Cindy
Happy Belated Birthday, buddy!! You look terrific and keep up the good work! You’re awesome =)
You are doing such an awesome job, and a fat face doesn’t make you look youger silly! I know you are looking better now with the weight loss, so I vote for you looking YOUNGER THIS YEAR! I am glad you told me it was your birthday, people can’t rejoice if they don’t know right! You look awesome! Angie
