Apparently it’s noticeable.
The lady at the Dunkin Donuts drive thru (where I was picking up my decaf, now allowed occasionally by the natural doctor - hooray!) told me I looked skinny.
Strangers at the gym are telling my trainer (and sometimes me) that I’m melting away.
And my cousin Annie said, “OMG Ellen you’re TINY!” And made me shop for new clothes so that I would get how they are supposed to fit.
And yet of course I still feel fat. Lovely time of year for the insecurity complex to be in full-swing. But I’m trying really hard to focus on the positive and do what I need to do to make sure I feel really good about myself this holiday season. Annie, btw, completely understands the whole family drama that I’m dealing with in my brain. Tried to talk me off the mental ledge and she did a pretty good job. We went shopping so I could see what fits and what doesn’t fit. It’s remarkable how much I don’t get the clothing thing at all, but I do know that her perspective on this helped because now I have a better idea of how not to feel dumpy in the clothes I do have right now. And Annie completely gets where I’m coming from - it’s nice to have a kindred spirit in the family that I can and do talk about anything and everything with. I just wish I saw her more often. My earlier blog comments about craving family were very very accurate. Annie met Tim on Saturday morning and gave me her seal of approval. I figured she would, but it’s always nice to be right on something like that!
I met Tim’s sister on Saturday night when we had our “first” date. The concert was great and Tim was so into it. It was very cute. I am nearly positive I passed the sister test with flying colors as she gave me a big hug and a kiss when we parted and told me she was looking forward to seeing me again soon. I know I’m almost 42 - like days away from it - but this may be the first time I’m meeting a boyfriend’s family members. I mean I’ve met them before, kinda, but never as the girlfriend per se. So I don’t know - I think I may be having an adult relationship. Crazy but true. In other good news, we spent the longest time together that we’ve ever spent and we got along great. No fighting, no bickering, no “omg is this over yet”. Just fun. Hooray. 
Heading off to school now. Hugs to all, Ellen
XML Feed
Congrats to you! Good job…………in both departments! hehe
I am so proud of you…Glad you clarified the dunkin donuts :)…They are soooo my favorite
Oh that’s great! Congrats and job well done!
Awesome entry today. Congrats on the compliments! You are doing great!
Annie sounds so sweet. It’s great you got to spend time with her. And I’m so happy for you and your time with Tim. Keep having fun.
WOW! That’s fabulous! Doesn’t it make you feel good? Now if that is not a reason to stay on plan I don’t know what is! Wonderful keep up the good work!
I can give a piece of advice. Don’t let the comments get to your head. When I lost over 100 lbs. I got tons of comments and then I started slacking and BOOM…I gained 50 of it back.
You are doing a great job but you still have to work your butt off!!!!!
~~~~Sharky~~~~
SharkysWorld.com
Thank God for the Annie’s in our lives, eh?
And I cannot beleivvvvvvvvvve you go to a donut place for your decaf. You must have the willpower of Hercules my dear. LOL Power to YOU!!!
Lovely news about Tim and passing sister test. But then again, you don’t NEED to pass tests with anyone, other than God. You’re Ellen. You’re unique. You’re special. There’s no one else on Earth like you. You’re unique talents and qualities make this world a better place to be. And anyone who can’t see that… well, they are just dummies. lol that’s what my dad says when he’s dealing with, ermmm, “difficult” people. He’s learned to take it with a smile and walk away and ALWAYS mutters “dummy” under his breath.
Love and big ol hugggggggggggggs,
Shan
Congrats! Soak ‘em up! Glad you are having a good time with Annie!
That’s awesome, Ellen, keep up the amazing work you’re doing. =) We always are our own worse critics, aren’t we? We look in the mirror and still feel fat despite the complements we receive. But just believe them when they say how good you look, and keep using that to your advantage. It means you’re doing things right, right? =) So good for you, and go get um!
Amen to the Annie’s in our lives!!! =) It’s nice to have kindred spirits around, isn’t it? You are definitely one of them!
Take care and keep up the excellant work! =)
Soooooooooooo glad to hear from you Ellen, TE (Tiny Ellen), so so proud of you. You always make me want to get up and get a good workout! LOL!
Seems like love is in the air?