Perserverance
I hope I spelled that right. It would be embarrassing to have it spelled wrong in perpetuity in my blog. And no, I’m not going to spell check it.
I cheated on my diet on Thursday. Big meeting with the nonprofit that I volunteer with and they catered in my favorite Italian deli stuff… so wheat, cheese, pork. You name it, I ate it. Not a ton of it, but I definitely ate it. When I got home, I noticed that my heart was racing, like if I had consumed 4 cups of coffee. I’m not sure why. I suspect of course that it was the food but I’m not sure what it was in the food. Either way, it was good to have a physical sign that I shouldn’t eat like that. I told a friend about it and he questioned whether I was actually just having an anxiety attack for cheating on my diet. That hadn’t occurred to me, but I wouldn’t be surprised if that was at least part of it. I’ve become completely obsessed, haven’t I?
With good results though, I’m down another 1.5 pounds this week, for a grand total of 24 pounds gone since August 1st. I’m really proud of myself, if I do say so myself. I was REALLY worried about the weigh in this morning because of the cheat fest on Thursday night. I kicked it up huge at the gym yesterday - 8 miles! I think it helped a lot. It certainly alleviated some of the guilt. (Yeah, Mike had a point on the anxiety attack…) This morning (after the weigh in!) I did an hour of Step and 2 more miles. I am now at 296 out of 300 for the Thanksgiving Walking Challenge. I remember when I started it thinking THERE IS NO WAY but apparently there is a way, and it’s called perserverance! (Oh! Good news - I was spelling the word wrong but the spell check caught it. You have no idea how much better this makes me feel, but then again closet dork blogging at you right now!)
So back to perserverance… it’s just one day at a time on all this stuff, isn’t it? If you think about 300 miles at once it’s just crazy. But breaking it down to daily and weekly goals, pushing myself to do just a little better than required… it’s made all the difference. The same is true about the pounds. If I think about it as “omg I have to lose how much weight?!” it feels overwhelming. But breaking it up into mini goals, celebrating the weekly achievements and feeling good about what I’ve accomplished… it’s making all the difference. Thanks for celebrating with me.
Hugs to all, Ellen
PS: MARGE! if I’m doing the math correctly I’m in your Louisville backyard so open the door and let me in! I’m pooped!!
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So! Are we there yet?? I am waiting. That happens to me, the heart thing, when I eat too much at a meal. It is really uncomfortable and a darn good reason NOT to overear. I think it has something to do with the blood being used to digest the food in larger amounts then usual. You are the only other person I have heard mention this. Just come on in, the door’s open! SUPER JOB!! Love, marge
Just remember that you started this challenge. You watched your TV, you told me it’s fun to do it, and look, there are 5 people marching still the miles, some of them going even farther.
As for overeating… it’s an attack on the liver because it gets overwhelmed with processing large amounts of food and can’t detox our bodies sufficiently. Hence, we have fatty acids floating in our blood… buildup in blood vessels… and everything else that is nasty and makes our bodies age and get sick. Sorry for graphic info.
Enjoy your date and make good choices.
And congrats on 1.5 pounds and total 24 pounds lost. Way to go!!!
XOXOX
Tatiana
I have the same thing happen to me when I eat bad foods or junk foods but I don’t think it’s anxiety but rather my body is having a hard time digesting that stuff. Good for you on having another loss! I’m sooo excited for you!!! You are really doing it girl! I remember when I first started my weight loss. I thought it was going to take forever. But, we have to keep working at it and the days do pass and progress is being made. I really think you are doing awesome. You make this stuff look easy.
24 POUNDS!!! Woo Hoo!!! Way to go..big big pat on the back for you girl! I love the way you look at the whole picture. Breaking it down into little steps is so much easier to do. Your attitude and perservence really are an inspiration to me!! Keep up the good work and have a terrific weekend Ellen!
Congratulations girly. You are doing awesome. I am so proud of you.
What makes you think you’re a CLOSET DORK? Hhahahah!! KIDDING of course!! Hey, thanks for the great advice you have Cyn, I love it. And congrats on losing 24 lbs., you rock. So tell me, what’s going on with Mr. Wonderful?
Congrats on your loss! Yeah, I get the same reaction when I eat sugar. Hang in there! We are still a work in prgress~!
You are doing awesome! It is great that you do the walking challenge, and step classes and all. I NEVER seem to have time, but you are an inspiration! You can do it! 24 lbs is quite the accomplishment. When I heard people saying I was overweight, I was not ready to lose yet, and friends tried to push me into it…But when i finally did start, by the way 3 years later than I should have, i gave it my all and now I am into it deep too! I can’t eat a little of anything, so to say ok cheat just a bit, It doesn’t work for me either, my body starts craving the stuff more and more, so now I make the body crave veggies! lol…I win! Angie
