PMS
I’m beginning to think I have PMS. I’m definitely having a down feeling today again and I checked the calendar and it’s been about 3.5 weeks. Now the truly odd thing about me having PMS is that technically I’m post menopausal. Tests showed that my hormones dropped out on me completely 2 years ago and I haven’t had a period since February 2006. Seriously. But this could be cyclical - these down feelings - so I’m thinking about charting it. And even though you’ve only known me a month, I think you all know how much I enjoy charting things. LOL Anyway, I’m just monitoring it to see what’s what.
All that said, I can at least look back at my blogs and see that what ultimately worked for me was faking it til I make it. So that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to send beautiful positive energy out to the universe, find the sunny side on every street, and keep on trucking. And I expect that somewhere over the weekend the cloud will lift.
Does anyone else struggle with depression? (You can PM me if you don’t want to post about it here.) I’m just absurdly open about my struggles there and it doesn’t embarrass me at all anymore. I gave up shielding myself and others from my personal truths a long time ago, as honestly I thought that layer of protection was isolating me more and making me more depressed. I finally accepted, “Hey this is who I am and you know what, I’m pretty okay.” Even the depression I deal with now isn’t based on not liking myself… it’s just sometimes the world overwhelms me. I can’t even explain it really - it’s mostly like some days I wake up and I feel like something heavy is sitting on my shoulders and my chest. And it’s a sadness that I can’t name. I don’t sob or anything… anymore. (Better living through chemistry? You bet.) And honestly most days I’m fine. It’s just these cycles. God, I’m sick of them.
I tend to not want to do anything on these days - I finally figured out what I was willing to eat for breakfast (3 chicken/apple sausage, 1 slice of ezekiel toast with cherry spread) and now I’m gearing myself up for a big walking day. It’s been a slow walking week for me - lots of appointments - so I’ve got some catching up to do. I’m also halfway dressed now - this actually is fairly telling, isn’t it? I’ve been up for several hours and I’ve just eaten something and am fully dressed from the waist down. Still in the nightshirt so don’t worry about me sitting here writing with the girls all hangin’ out. That’s an image.
All righty, I need to get my first 4 miles in. I will read your journals and find inspiration in my day through you all. You are wonderful.
I celebrate the beauty that surrounds me.
Ellen
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Ahem… girls hangin out… a little more information than I needed Ellen… *chuckles*
Sooooo, if we didn’t have these down days, then those rainbow days wouldn’t be so bright and appreciated….
Sprinkling my happy dust through cyberspace to you… roll with it… and brighter days ahead sweetie.
A quick pick me up when I get down is to go out and do something for someone else. Works like a charm every time…
Hugggggggggggggs,
Shan
“EVERYTHING comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it.”
— Rabindranath Tagore
I love ur positive attitude toward ur life and wanting share that with the rest of the world….Keep at it ma’am….as far as i know pms usually has alot of depression associated with it…but u know it all depends on how u take…don’t dwell on it too much…take it just like the first time u menstuated…same physiological phenomenon…It doesn’t make u any less of a women or tat u r not a wonderful person…the truth is u r a gr8 person so don’t let a physiological thing put u down…u know actually i think…now is the time for u to party and enjoy life to the max…cos ur hormones have finally settled down…so live it up lady!!!!!!!!!
Ellen,
I don’t have to send you a PM. I will spell it out right here. I too have depression and know how easy it is to slide down the negative thinking slope and stop doing things I enjoy.
However…I sometimes like the feeling of being down… because it signifies that something is definitely missing in my life. It makes me stretch my limits and go beyond the routine I developed. It also makes me think about the meaning of life and death… and re-evaluate things on a big scale. It propels me into a spiritual journey. It makes me want to discover something that would take my breath away and make me excited again and close to my true self and other people.
Moods are like seasons. We need spring and winter, summer and fall… our moods have a reason. Of course, when it’s really profound and you can’t function, there is no way you should tolerate that.
Now put your HAPPY hat on and get dressed!
Hugs,
Tatiana
Its funny how much we learn from our buddies here! You and I share alot in common…I’m menopausal…YIPPEE!!! nothing since Easter!!! and I do suffer from occasional depression. But wow look at the advice given so far…Hats off to the ladies comments above. You hit the nail right on the head. You just take care and remember we are all here to try and help you through the rough days. Big Hugs!
I just love ya Ellen. What else can I say! =0)